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breakinglight11) wrote2022-02-09 04:41 pm
breakinglight11) wrote2022-02-09 04:41 pm
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Cracked a fic chapter that had been confounding me!
After a four-month hiatus, I finished a chapter of my fan fic series! I didn’t mean to take so long. But I was in an intensive production cycle, and I just didn’t have much time or bandwidth left over for working on fic.
Additionally, for some reason, I was struggling with the part of the conversation I was working on for that part of the story. It was supposed to be Howard Stark confessing to some ways he’d recently been acting out as a reaction to some problems he’s going through, and Steve trying to balance his disappointment in Howard’s actions with trying to be nonjudgmental and supportive. The levels of vulnerability, defensiveness, compassion, and self-righteousness just weren’t coming out right.
But lately I’ve been in a quiet period and I missed it, so I was determined to buckle down and work my way through it. It’s taken me a couple of weeks— for some reason I just couldn’t seem to get it right! I couldn’t have figured it out without Bernie’s input. He doesn’t really work with me on my fan fic like he does my other writing just because I do it as a silly side thing on my own time, but he does consult for me now and then. And given his feedback helped me solve this, it reminds me what we make is always better when we work on it together. But this means I’ve finally cracked it, and with some editing I was very pleased with the result. I published the new chapter today.
This story isn’t the most popular I’ve written in the series. It’s a very… middle-aged kind of story, I like to joke. It’s about Steve and Howard Stark in middle age dealing with their odd friendship in the midst of some slightly old-fashioned masculine crises in the 1960s. It’s not the sort of thing your average fan fic reader is drawn to, so it doesn’t get as many hits as other parts of the series have. But I’ve enjoyed writing it a lot, and I’m proud of what I’ve made. So I’m super happy to have worked through my difficulties and continued it in the manner I believe it deserves!
Additionally, for some reason, I was struggling with the part of the conversation I was working on for that part of the story. It was supposed to be Howard Stark confessing to some ways he’d recently been acting out as a reaction to some problems he’s going through, and Steve trying to balance his disappointment in Howard’s actions with trying to be nonjudgmental and supportive. The levels of vulnerability, defensiveness, compassion, and self-righteousness just weren’t coming out right.
But lately I’ve been in a quiet period and I missed it, so I was determined to buckle down and work my way through it. It’s taken me a couple of weeks— for some reason I just couldn’t seem to get it right! I couldn’t have figured it out without Bernie’s input. He doesn’t really work with me on my fan fic like he does my other writing just because I do it as a silly side thing on my own time, but he does consult for me now and then. And given his feedback helped me solve this, it reminds me what we make is always better when we work on it together. But this means I’ve finally cracked it, and with some editing I was very pleased with the result. I published the new chapter today.
This story isn’t the most popular I’ve written in the series. It’s a very… middle-aged kind of story, I like to joke. It’s about Steve and Howard Stark in middle age dealing with their odd friendship in the midst of some slightly old-fashioned masculine crises in the 1960s. It’s not the sort of thing your average fan fic reader is drawn to, so it doesn’t get as many hits as other parts of the series have. But I’ve enjoyed writing it a lot, and I’m proud of what I’ve made. So I’m super happy to have worked through my difficulties and continued it in the manner I believe it deserves!