Grateful

[breakinglight11]

It is incredibly hard for me to ask for help, from anyone, with anything. I feel like if I have a problem, especially if it's my own fault I have that problem, it's my responsibility to fix it. I hate to be irresponsible, or weak, or incapable, and I hate to impose on or take anything from anyone else. I get ashamed when there are witnesses to my screwup, or worse, my inability to handle it myself. And even when seeking help is otherwise reasonable or acceptable in all other ways, there's always part of me that can't help but think, "Why would anyone want to help me?" 

Bernie, Matt, and Jonathan dug my car out for me. It was an incredibly kind and loving thing to do, and it means more to me than I can say that they were willing to do it. I am inexpressibly grateful.

Thank you.

Comments

[laurion]

We choose to help because we know some day you'll be able to help us with something. Or you'll in some other way do something nice for us. Like organizing a larp con.

Friends do for each other.

[morethings5.livejournal.com]

Can you do me, yourself, and Bernie a huge favor and send these sentiments his way ASAP? We were all very happy to help you, and did not think less of you for a moment for needing our help. That was simply not any person's one-person job.

[breakinglight11.livejournal.com]

It's not that simple. I told him I was grateful for his effort. But he decides what's best for me all the time, regardless of what he knows I want. It's patronizing and paternalistic, and that's what I had the problem with.

[darkoni]

That's kind of awesome. You got some good people there.

[lightgamer.livejournal.com]

Happy to help. I know you could have handled it yourself, given enough time, but these things are more fun and get done faster when you team up.