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2024-07-31 07:03 pm

Little Monsters - Episode 5. "The Cool Kids' Table"

Little Monsters
stop motion shorts by Phoebe Roberts

Previous episodes:
Episode 1 - Eat Your Heart Out
Episode 2 - Made Wrong
Episode 3 - Creeping Over
Episode 4 - The Right Words

This episode: New kid Abbey Bominable has to prove herself before she can sit with the coolest ghouls in school.

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Episode 5 - "The Cool Kids' Table"



Written, shot, and edited by Phoebe Roberts

Featuring the voice talents of
Liz Salazar as Abbey Bominable
Jenn Benfield as Draculaura
Naomi Ibasitas as Cleo de Nile
Arielle Kaplan as Toralei Stripe
Coryn May as Frankie Stein

With technical help from Bernie Gabin.

From @ BreakingLightProductions on YT
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2023-11-18 02:45 pm

Little Monsters - Episode 3. "Creeping Over"

Little Monsters
stop motion shorts by Phoebe Roberts

Previous episodes:
Episode 1 - Eat Your Heart Out
Episode 2 - Made Wrong

This episode: Girls love to dabble in dark rituals at their slumber parties. These ghouls are no different... except maybe in who they're trying to summon.

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Episode 3 - "Creeping Over"



Written, shot, and edited by Phoebe Roberts

With the voice talents of
Jenn Benfield as Draculaura
Nuance Bryant as Clawdeen Wolf
Coryn May as Frankie Stein
And Cari Keebaugh as Twyla Boogieman

With technical assistance from Bernie Gabin

From @ BreakingLightProductions on Youtube
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2019-02-20 09:20 am

I need to own less costuming

I have been bitching and moaning a lot lately about the amount of costuming I own. It's just getting to the point where it's outgrown the storage space I have for it and encroaching on living space. I'm lucky in that I have a lot of closets and places to tuck boxes away, but I have had to get increasingly inventive and put things in places where I find them an imposition. I think the only real answer is to do a serious culling, but I'm reluctant to do it due to the nature of building and making use of this particular kind of collection.

The Victorian stuff is the most important part of it. I need it for the Mrs. Hawking plays, given how large an element lush and attractive costuming is for those shows. In the most recent piece, Mrs. Frost, most characters had three or four outfits, and nobody had less than two. We have mostly the same cast coming back for the performances, but I try to keep some alternative sizes on hand in case a new actor has to sub in. Having multiple options that way makes the collection larger with things that don't often get used, but it's necessary to accommodate changes with any efficiency.

Since that's the majority of what I'm doing right now, it might make sense to keep only the Victorian stuff. But I have so many things that are unique and interesting such that if I ever do get rid of them, they're basically irreplaceable. They were dug out of cleared-out theater storage, or found in thrift stores. They don't get used often at this point, but I often find I have exactly the perfect thing for a larp, or another show, or to lend to somebody who needs it that I can't bear the thought of tossing the cool interesting stuff even if it doesn't get much call. I just repurposed a dance costume I bought for "Lame Swans", the photographic graphic novel I made in grad school for an Intercon costume I'm really pleased with. That thing's been shoved in a plastic bin for like five or six years, because I liked it too much to get rid of it. I feel vindicated in a way. But it doesn't solve my storage problem, or the feeling of being overwhelmed by the space demands of my collection. Hell, I still have ALL the costuming from the Lame Swans project, including enough simple solid colored skirted dance leotards to outfit a small army. SERIOUSLY, IF YOU NEED TO DRESS AN ARMY OF SOLID COLORED BALLERINAS, HIT ME UP. I GOT RED, PURPLE, DARK BLUE, AND LIGHT BLUE.



I was also struck pretty strongly by the experience of dressing the ensemble for the large ballroom scene on the Mrs. Hawking film. I used almost every single ballgown and tuxedo piece I owned— WHICH IS A LOT —to make that happen, and it would have been literally impossible if I hadn't had so much at my fingertips. I found that process to be pretty brutal, honestly, even with the enormous amount of help Jenn gave me to get everybody actually properly dressed, so the idea of anything that might have made it harder is kind of terrifying. But it makes me even more nervous to get rid of stuff, because I've seen how much help it can be to have it on hand.

I think I need to sit down with an obliging friend (Jenn seems like a good candidate) who can help me get some outside perspective on what's actually special enough to keep and what is just taking up space. It occurs to me that the weird color obsession I have with dressing the Hawking characters might help me make decisions about the Hawking stuff. For example, light blue womenswear has been pretty exclusively limited to Mary and Frost, so if I've got a light blue piece that neither of them is likely to wear, I should probably thank it for its service and release it into the wild, Marie Kondo-style. I think an additional brain or two with less subjective concerns might help.

If I don't do something, I may be crushed to death in the impending tuxedo-pants-and-eighties-prom-dress avalanche.
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2017-02-14 04:07 pm

Intercon Q con report - Silver Lines

The highlight of my weekend was the running of Silver Lines, my mystery tabletop-game-turned-larp set in the future of the Mrs. Hawking storyline. As I mentioned, this was the first time I ever ran it as a true larp, with physical locations and physical props, and I was nervous about how it would turn out. But I am pleased to report that with the invaluable support of [livejournal.com profile] in_water_writ as co-GM, it was a definite success!



I love mysteries, and if I may say so myself, I'm getting pretty good at writing them. Base Instruments is my most recent serious triumph in the genre, and this one turned out really strong as well. Good thing, because two of my players, specifically those who took on the roles of Mary and Arthur, signed up expressly because they wanted to solve a murder mystery. So it was important that it be good.

I really love this story, and I think the game itself works really well. It tells a moment of the greater Hawking story that is unlikely to ever make it into a play, but still is fitting and important. This run also drove home to me how flexible it is as a module. It only has five players, which is pretty easy to fill, but at least three out of five can be seamlessly any gender, and all but one can be turned into an NPC who the PCs can encounter and get necessary information from. It's as open to as much or as little character-based roleplaying as you like, or you can focus on making the mystery solving your primary drive.

The physicality of it, the props and the locations, worked well. Jenn and I divided the NPCs equally between us, which worked well because it enabled one of us to interact with players while the other prepared other aspects of the game. The players suggested that sound design could be used to further flesh out the locations, such as crowd noise or music to set the scenes.

The players went through it VERY efficiently. In previous forms, all of which were more tabletop-style, the game took about four hours, but this group reached the end in a little over two. That surprised me a little, but they seemed to have fun, so I didn't mind. And they didn't miss any of the planned parts of the game. I really enjoyed running it the whole time, and I'm really indebted to Jenn for helping me. She did an amazing job!

I'm looking forward to rerunning this larp version at Festival of the Larps 2017 April 28th-30th at Brandeis University. If you'd like to play, be sure to come out then!

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2017-02-09 01:28 pm

Readying for Intercon Q this weekend

I'm snowed in my house today; one of the advantages of working for schools is that you usually get the day off when it's really coming down. So I'm spending the day getting all my ducks in a row for Intercon this weekend, plus, if I can get my head into it, doing some writing.

I've got a LOT of Intercon stuff to pack. My game, Silver Lines, is totally ready, with pretty much a full complement of physical props. I think it will be a pretty cool experience, one I've never really managed before in a game, but it means there are a lot of pieces. Fortunately for me, [livejournal.com profile] inwaterwrit agreed to be my co-GM, which will make managing everything a million times easier than trying to do it on my own. But I also have costuming to bring, both for the game I'm playing and to return to people, as well as the pipes and drapes I'm lending to [livejournal.com profile] lightgamer for his game. And I'm bringing the remaining hard copies of the first issue of Game Wrap Magazine to sell at the registration desk. I'd love to do some of the packing of that stuff into my car, but I don't want to mess with it until the snow stops coming down.

But I'm excited. I think Silver Lines is going to be super fun to run. I really love the story of the game and think it's a great mystery. Also, I'm excited to see how the game runs with full props and environments. I think it's going to add a lot, and I'm super glad to have Jenn's help. This is the first time we've ever done it that way, so wish us luck!

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2016-08-09 02:01 pm

31 Plays in 31 Days, #9 - "Nothing in Common"



Okay, so I did it. I took a stab at actually writing scenes for a "Bridesmaids" comedy series. This is roughly based on the jokes I made about how we as as [livejournal.com profile] inwaterwrit's bridesmaids looked like we ought to have a Sex in the City-style TV show about us. A couple people suggested it would actually make a good show and I should try to write it. So here's my first crack!

It's adapted a fair bit from the original jokey premise. Like, I made the cast more ethnically diverse. And I decided that it needed a central unifying figure, so I added in a bride character, as very, very loosely based on Jenn as the others are on the rest of us. (I emphasize the looseness as in comedy you can't always do the most flattering portrayals of the people the characters are inspired by.) This scene is probably only half of what it should be, but I found a reasonable cutoff and I will continue it later. Perhaps in an entry for another day of 31P31D2016. For now, I hope this makes you laugh.

Day #9 - Nothing in Common )
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2015-06-02 11:25 am

New post on Mrshawking.com -- "Costume interviews with Jenn Giorno - Mary's new ballgown"

New post on Mrshawking.com!

"Costume interviews with Jenn Giorno - Mary's new ballgown"

In our first production at Arisia '15, we were very generously lent our leading ladies’ eveningwear by the costume company Pendragon Costumes. They are gorgeous and beautifully made, and we were really grateful to have them.

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But for the recent performance at the Watch City Steampunk Festival ’15, we had to find alternatives to use. Given the elaborateness of Victorian ballgowns, and the fairly punishing quick costume changes I wrote into the script, that posed a pretty big challenge for our costume designer, Jennifer Giorno. When I interviewed Jenn about her design process, Mary’s dress proved a perfect example of how she attacked that particular problem.

Circe Rowan as Mary


Read the rest of the entry on Mrshawking.com!
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2015-05-26 10:59 am

New post on Mrshawking.com -- "Costume interviews with Jenn Giorno - the menswear"

New post on Mrshawking.com!

Did you admire the lovely Victorian costuming in our production of Mrs. Hawking? It was the work of Jennifer Giorno, our primary designer and the actress who portrayed Grace Monroe, and my very dear friend. She, like me, believes very strongly in the power of costuming to help tell the story and define the characters.

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I had the chance to sit down with Jenn and ask her how she approached the fairly challenging task of emulating historical fashions on a tight budget that had to stand up to the rigors and quick changing of theater. She had some fascinating things to say about the process, on a wide variety of costuming issues! So I'll be breaking it into parts, and today's section will be on one of my favorites, the menswear!

The menswear of Mrs. Hawking was designed after the very regimented styles worn in Victorian England. There was a separate uniform for respectable gentlemen's daywear, the morning and frock suits, and eveningwear, the white and black tie tuxedos. It's a very visually recognizable style, so it would be clear if we did it wrong. Given that we were working mostly with found, borrowed, and thrifted items, it's amazing just how dapper our gentlemen turned out!

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Read the rest of the entry on Mrshawking.com!
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2015-05-15 03:36 pm

New post on Mrshawking.com -- "Gallery of character portraits from Mrs. Hawking at WCSF ’15!"

Thanks to Damian Hickey, the CDA photographer at the Watch City Steampunk Festival, we now have a beautiful gallery of in-character portraits from our most recent performance of Mrs. Hawking!

Francis Hauert as Lord Brockton
Francis Hauert as Lord Brockton

Brian Dorfman as Colchester
Brian Dorfman as Colchester

Circe Rowan as Mary
Circe Rowan as Mary

These shots are really gorgeous, and I'm very proud of the cast for their ability to evoke their characters in their modeling. Not to mention Jennifer Giorno's lovely costume design! This is the first section of our new Gallery page, which will be soon followed by shots from the performance itself. But for now, enjoy these gorgeous portraits by Damian Hickey, and see how a combination of good photography, talented actors, and beautiful costuming can capture the spirit of these characters.

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2015-03-27 02:14 pm

Cast list for Mrs. Hawking at the Watch City Steampunk Festival!

We have assembled our cast list for the encore production of Mrs. Hawking at the Watch City Steampunk Festival in Waltham this May!



Cast

Mrs. Victoria Hawking – Frances Kimpel
Miss Mary Stone – Circe Rowan
Mr. Nathaniel Hawking – Jeremiah O’Sullivan
Mrs. Celeste Fairmont – Sarah Jenkins
Lord Cedric Brockton – Francis Hauert
Sir Walter Grainger – Jordan Greeley
Mr. John Colchester – Brian Dorfman
Miss Grace Monroe – Jennifer Giorno
Ensemble – Andrew Prentice

Crew

Director - Phoebe Roberts
Stage Manager - Eboracum Richter-Dahl
Technical Director - Bernie Gabin
Costume Designer - Jennifer Giorno
Sound Designer - Neil Marsh
Violence Designer - Arielle Kaplan

As you can see, it's a mix of old and new hands from our previous production. While we are sorry to see so many of our talented original cast depart, I'm extremely excited to work with the fabulous new people we've found. I look forward to seeing what new and different dimensions they will bring out of the play, and the freshness that their personal intepretations will bring.

So be sure to join at the Watch City Steampunk Festival this May to see how things shape up!

Mrs. Hawking by Phoebe Roberts will be performed on Saturday, May 9th at 2PM and 6PM at the Center for Digital Arts at 274 Moody Street, Waltham as part of the 2015 Watch City Steampunk Festival.
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2015-02-20 07:24 pm

New post on Mrshawking.com -- "Tuxedos, fine ladies, and ruffians – more costuming for Mrs. Hawking"

New post on Mrshawking.com!



"Tuxedos, fine ladies, and ruffians – more costuming for Mrs. Hawking"

Jennifer Giorno, our amazing costumer, put together such a gorgeous collection of looks for our production at Arisia 2015. Historical Victorian dress, particularly for men, was very strictly regimented, but we still wanted to balance that with creating a visually engaging stylization that spoke of our characters' personalities as well as provide texture to the world they live in. In addition to our leads, Jenn assembled a beautiful collection of looks to round out our supporting cast. Many pieces came from our personal collections, while others were very generous loans from our friends Lise Fracalossi and Nicholas Magruder.

Read the rest of the entry and see the rest of the looks on Mrshawking.com!
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2015-02-09 10:15 am

New post on Mrshawking.com -- "The ballroom scene by Pendragon Costumes"

New post on Mrshawking.com!

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Photos by Jennifer Giorno and John Benfield


"The ballroom scene by Pendragon Costumes"

When I was first writing Mrs. Hawking, I knew a big part of the appeal of the story would be the trappings and the spectacle. The look of the steampunk setting would add a great deal of gloss to the tale I was trying to tell, and I wanted to take advantage of everything that setting would afford me. And you can't tell a grand caper set in Victorian London without a few gorgeous period costumes.



Though I pitched in with a few looks for the Arisa 2015 production, mostly ones I’d already put together for the Mrs. Hawking photoshoots, our primary costume designer was Jennifer Giorno, also the actress playing Grace Monroe. So the challenge of putting together Victorian ballroom looks that could be changed in and out of in very short order fell on her. Not an easy task on our budget! But she got a great idea to see if we could a costume company to agree to sponsor our production by lending us some pieces. That is where Pendragon came in, a maker of fine costuming with a fabulous selection of steampunk and Victorian looks in their Mad Girl Clothing line.



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In return for credit in our program, they very generously agreed to lend us three pieces of handmade eveningwear for our leads. It was an incredible thing to happen to us, as it gave us the opportunity to have some of the most important costumes in the play be particularly beautiful, as well as practical for the demands of the quick change.

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A full Pendragon outfit can be seen here on Samantha LeVangie in her role as Mary. It was particularly important that Mary come out looking exquisite-- transformatively so --as an indication of Mary's potential to become a powerful, brilliant, dyanmic person. Jenn asked the company if it would be possible to get Mary’s garments in blue, as I’ve long imagined it to be Mary’s signature color.

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The other piece Pendragon so graciously lent us was for Mrs. Hawking, modeled here by Frances Kimpel. This was also a Corset with Bustle, a particularly useful piece not only because it looked so cool, but because its toggle-hooks running down the front assisted in making the quick change a little easier. Because Mrs. Hawking is a widow, of course it had to be in black.

Read the rest of the entry and see the rest of the pictures on Mrshawking.com!
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2015-01-03 09:20 pm

New post on Mrshawking.com -- "Dressing the parts"

New post on Mrshawking.com!

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"Dressing the parts"

A huge part of the appeal of period drama, Victoriana and steampunk in particular, is the flash and pagentry of the costuming!

Costuming adds a whole extra dimension to theatrical productions. So much can be communicated about a character by the way they dress; actors tend to feel so much for like the people they are portraying when in costume; and it can add visual fascination to any production. Not to mention when you're telling a story about badass superheroes in a period caper, they definitely need to look cool. So we are working our hardest to ensure that all our characters have a distinctive, appealing, and period-appropriate look.

Read the rest of the entry on Mrshawking.com!

Mrs. Hawking, by Phoebe Roberts, will be performed at Arisia 2015 on Friday, January 16th at 6PM at the Westin Waterfront Boston.
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2014-11-13 01:07 pm

Cast announced for Mrs. Hawking at Arisia '15!

I give you the cast of Mrs. Hawking at Arisia '15!

Mrs. Victoria Hawking: Frances Kimpel
Miss Mary Stone: Samantha LeVangie
Mr. Nathaniel Hawking: Jonathan Plesser
Mrs. Celeste Fairmont: Arielle Kaplan
Lord Cedric Brockton: Francis Hauert
Sir Walter Grainger: Matthew Kamm
Mr. John Colchester: Robert Imperato
Miss Grace Monroe: Jennifer Giorno
Ensemble: Joye Thaller, Andrew Prentice

I am really excited to work with each and every one of these people!

Read more on Mrshawking.com!
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2012-04-26 10:29 am

The Esmeralda Series

So as you may remember, I did a photoshoot involving [livejournal.com profile] polaris_xx as my lovely model and [livejournal.com profile] in_water_writ as brilliant costumer and stylist. Though I don't currently have access to the software I want to really edit these photos, it's about time I posted them in at least rough form so you could take a look at them.

Gigi is playing Esmeralda, a society lady with a secret. Can you see what it is?

Pictures behind the cut )
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2012-03-19 09:28 am

Photo shoot with Gigi and Jenn

God knows the very thing I need is more projects, but I like keeping busy and making neat things, especially when lovely friends and collaborators are involved in the process. Yesterday I had the chance to do just that with [livejournal.com profile] polaris_xx and the invaluable help of [livejournal.com profile] inwaterwrit, and I'm really pleased with how it went.

Both Jenn and I have had the very honor to be the subject of a photo shoot by the lovely and talented [livejournal.com profile] hazliya, who sets up gorgeous scenarios with settings and costuming, gives wonderful direction on how to model the idea behind the shoot, and has an eye for just the right shots. It was so much fun, and I really admire the works that Haz makes. Though I don't have a fraction of her knowledge and experience, I found myself wanting to try my hand at something along those lines.

I liked the idea of coming up with a little character and plot and setting up a photo shoot to depict that story visually. My first idea I particularly wanted to be the sort where you look at the picture is ostensibly about one thing, but if you examine it more closely to can figure out what's really going on. I will not tell you what my theory was here, because I'd prefer to see who gleans it from looking at the finished series of photos.

For this first time the person I wanted to work with was [livejournal.com profile] polaris_xx, who is a talented, expressive actress, lovely to look upon, and always wonderful to work with. I thought she would be perfect for this character, a fancy society lady named Esmeralda. But of course she needed to be costumed for the part, so naturally I turned to the expert in the matter, everyone's favorite Costume Fairy Jenn. She provided two lovely evening gowns, one a clingy dark blue with sparkles all over it, the other a sleek one-shoulder burgundy with a sweeping skirt. They were absolutely the right look, and Gigi looked fabulous in them! Jenn has such a good eye, and not only for that. As we set up the space, wrangling my house into an appropriate setting for the little drama-in-pictures we wanted to tell, Jenn had a wealth of ideas for shots, for tweaks to optimize the image we were trying to portray, and notes for Gigi's acting. And Gigi was as awesome as ever. She has so much talent and her incredibly expressive face is just perfect for getting things across in a visual medium. Also, she is willing to try anything and just throw herself in to the best of her ability. That might be my favorite thing to work with in a collaborator of any kind, a willingness to throw out ideas and try and experiment and see what works. I'm so grateful to both of them for taking the time to lend their talent and efforts.

It took hours, and we wrecked the place with all our props, costumes, and tools, but I learned a lot about what to expect from running a photography shoot. I think I will be a lot more prepared and streamlined in the future. Here's a teaser for you all, a very roughly edited shot from the shoot that I think captures a particularly get moment from Gigi. The rest I'll post once I've had a chance to go through them all, and put them through a real editing program.

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2012-01-26 11:50 am

Biweekly Theater Writing Challenge #13.9 - Tailor of Riddling Way, scene 2.5


Last night we finished recording the last voice in the scene we began with [livejournal.com profile] rigeland [livejournal.com profile] thefarowl last Saturday. Bernie and I snagged [livejournal.com profile] niobien after the design meeting for Titus. We cleaned up the recording of the other two voices so that Carolyn would have something to respond to, and I'm very pleased with the results. We played the other two voice tracks and let Carolyn speak in the pauses we specifically left to accomodate her lines. Directing for voice recording is a different experience than directing for the stage, and the best ways of doing so are emerging to me slowly through practice. I'm really happy to have cast Carolyn, by the way. She has exactly the right sound for the character of Bethany Loring, and I loved working with her so much in Merely Players that I wanted to give her a speaking role and see how she did. Her enthusiasm and effort really comes through in her performance. The scene obviously hasn't really been edited yet, but technically we have a completely recorded piece. It's our first, the first of many we will need to do. :-) 

This is probably the last scene in Episode 2, immediately following the large chunk that I posted yesterday. This scene went in a slightly different direction from how I expected it to. I wanted this part to place the issue of the class conflict overtly on the table. Della, who is a friend of Tom's and from a similar working-class background, forces him to think about how he may have to confront the realities of dealing with people of significantly higher social standing. I also included a hint that Tom's developing feelings for Alice. I was debating whether or not to include that in the story at all-- except maybe a suggestion that was where things were going at the very end, once everything is resolved --but I realized that can be a way of underscoring the class issue, of giving something for the two of them to deal with. Upping the conflict, I have learned from my grad program, is always an important part of designing a compelling story.

I am also looking forward to having [livejournal.com profile] inwaterwritin the role of Della. She was one of the few that couldn't make the read through, so I haven't had a chance to hear her yet, and I am very excited for when I finally do. I think she will do a great job bringing the sensibility, loyalty, and down-to-earth humanity that I want for the part. I also enjoy writing parts and dialogue with the actor in mind, so I've had her voice in my head as I put this scene together.

Can't wait to actually hear these lines in Jenn's voice... )
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2011-12-07 09:13 am

Friends in Pride and Prejudice!


A number of friends recently got the good news that they were cast in Theatre@First's upcoming production of Pride and Prejudice! Jared will be playing the role of Mr. Bingley, the handsome, amiable friend and foil to the acerbic Mr. Darcy. [livejournal.com profile] twilighttremolo has been cast in the role of Jane Bennett, the sister of the heroine Elizabeth and the lady with whom Mr. Bingley falls in love. And [livejournal.com profile] in_water_writ will be featured in the dancing ensemble. I'm looking forward to see how the show turns out; Jared hasn't done much non-classical theater before. I think To Think of Nothing is his only contemporary piece, and that tries to emulate the much older style! So it'll be neat to hear him in something non-Shakespearean. The performances are at the Somerville Theater on March 23rd, 24th, and 30th at 8PM and then March 31st at 2PM. I hope you all can join me in coming out to see them!
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2010-12-28 09:03 am

Ten Day Meme: Day Six

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

1. Jared

2. My mom

3. My dad

4. I'm going to count Steph and Jenn as one in this spot, as I want to put them both down for the reason of being "friend Phoebe actually confides in."

5. Bernie

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2010-12-10 12:44 pm

Tea party with Tegan

Again I am forcefully reminded of how much against my nature it is to hope. In trying again at something at which I failed in the past, I have to really fight to keep the fear of it happening all over again from paralyzing me. I confess I have no hope of this time being any different. But I am reminding myself again and again that there can only be a chance if I try.

Yesterday I didn't get much done, but instead I was pleasantly surprised by an afternoon and evening of socializing. [livejournal.com profile] twilighttremolo mentioned on Facebook that she had Thursday off and planned to be in Waltham for the day, was anyone available to hang out? Having not much seen her or gotten to spend any real time with her lately, I asked if she might be interested in afternoon tea. We had a lovely time chatting over Earl Grey, and I learned that she is adapting an early gothic novel into dramatic form for the BORG play this upcoming semester. I can't wait to see what she does with it. It was very nice getting to spend so much time talking with her, AND I got a chance to use my lovely bone china tea set that Jared gave me. :-) Afterward, our little tea party expanded to include [livejournal.com profile] katiescarlett29, [livejournal.com profile] in_water_writ, and Bernie in what was described as a "social katamari ball" and we all went out for a nice dinner at Watch City. Bernie had to run a little bit early, so I took the rest of us back to my place for BSCF. The night went a bit later than I would have wanted, but it was a very nice time with very good company, so I am pleased.

I am trying to keep from worrying. I need to stay relaxed, and just do my best to deal with all the things on my plate. Nice days like yesterday help.