Crowded

[breakinglight11]

In an unusually grouchy mood today. Have been feeling kind of out of control of my space a lot lately. There are lots of people around all the time, and I know that I invited some of them but it was slightly forced on me, and it isn't my place to say to the others can't be here because I'm not the only one that lives here, but I'm feeling crowded and overrun. I try to make the best of it and be friendly and make conversation with the guests, but mostly there is a brief response followed by the immediate return to whatever they're doing on their omnipresent laptops. It's like the living room is now an Internet cafe. And with the constant seething of people, everything I clean seems to gets immediately messed up again.

In even grouchier news, I'm irritated with how soft I'm getting. I'm starting to look like everybody else.

Comments

[gizmo224.livejournal.com]

Maybe taking some time outside of the house in a not-so-busy place (like a park, or something) could be a good idea?

Also, every time I've seen you you've been beautiful, girl. And I've run into you during other times when you were doubting your appearance, though that may not help much since I haven't seen you since FotL.

Take care, Phoebe. :)

[hanasaseru.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I know I was trying to maintain a conversation with you over my laptop, when we were talking about Alice for example, but in that case I was genuinely working on homework and last minute studying. However, I know I've been guilty of it without having a particularly excuse also.

Also, that is why I don't think I will ever live with more than two or at most three other people - when you have five or more people in a house, it really seems to me like it would stop feeling like your own space. So, in both regards, I am sorry, and I am also sorry for my part in it, and I hope things go better for you in the future.