Weary me

Now that Mrs. Chadwick is taken care of, I have a little bit less to worry about. Last week, with having to finalize show preparations on top of having an unusually high number of errands that necessitated driving all over creation, was pretty exhausting, and now I am a little burnt out. Of course, burnt out has been kind of my default state in the last year or so. I don't know what it means that I'm twenty-five years old and feel tired all the time, but it's probably not a good sign.

The root of it all is probably stress. I've always had a hard time striking a balance between feeling active and productive and feeling overloaded and overwhelmed. Among other problems, I'm not sure I really have any good way to manage my stress other than just kind of ignoring it. My usual technique when I feel too burnt out is to lay around and not do anything except maybe watch some TV I've seen a million times. I guess that's not terrible-- could be a lot worse, like stress-eating or drinking or drugs --but it means basically becoming a braindead lump. How to people manage stress? Meditation? Worth a try. Exercise? Well, I can always use more exercise. I guess I also tend to sleep too much when I'm stressed, but that's not a good habit either. I could use a better way to handle it, since I doubt it's going away anytime soon.

Costume for Cracks in the Orb

A while ago I got my casting hint for captainecchi's new larp, Cracks in the Orb, which will be debuting at SLAW this November. I will be playing Esaline, Issola lady and seneschal to the Viscount of Glassmoor. That doesn't mean much to me yet, as all I have is the hint, and I'm not familiar with the Dragaera novels on which the game is based, but what I know so far seems good to me.

It's a fantasy medieval game, and the colors of my nation are green and white. In my closet I have a dress which came from what my mom and I used to refer to as "the hippie store," a velor-and-silky dress with kind of a fairyland aesthetic. It has sweeping, slashed sleeves and a hemline of dangling tendrils. To give it dimension and add a little white in there, I put this white medieval shift on under it, which I wore in Across the Sea of Stars and was a very sweet gift to me from in_water_writ.

It's not the most flattering thing in the world, but I think it has the right look. I wish you could see a bit more of the white; it's only visible at the sleeves and hem. I do like how it fills the skirt out at the bottom, though I wasn't able to take a picture that showed it very well. (Sorry for my blasted expression; I was squinting to see the shot in my phone on the dresser.)

I don't think I need much more, though I haven't chosen my shoes yet, and I should probably pick jewelry and something to do with my hair. I used to have a circlet that I wore with this dress, but I'm not sure where it got off too. Maybe I should give my mom a call and see if it's still around the house.