Focus still shot
Jul. 29th, 2013 05:08 pmI have been having a hell of a time focusing lately. I've had nice long chunks of time recently to get things done, and almost no ability to buckle down and use it for anything productive. I have so many things I should be writing and working on, but it takes a huge amount of effort to get to any of them. The heat is a problem, I think, but I've been having focus issues for what seems like years now, and I really don't know what to do about it.
I probably just need to put more effort into not screwing around. It's rare that I can't get things done when I really need to. I can kick my ass into gear when it really counts, like when I have a deadline or something. I did just finish a grad program that involved quite a bit of serious work, after all. But I feel like it never used to be so hard.
I've probably partially turned into a mobile-device addict, which I've heard makes us so addicted to stimulation it becomes harder and harder to fix one's brain to a task that is not instantly gratifying. It also seemed to get really bad with the depression. The last four years or so seemed to have me on a steady decline that way, so I'd been assuming that was at least mostly the depression's (and maybe the iPhone's) fault. But while pretty much every other thing that the depression killed has come back, that's still no better. I'm starting to get concerned. I hate to fall into uselessness, or not get done the things I need to. But I don't really know how to fix this.
Maybe I should start with not playing with the iPhone and see where that got me. :-P
I probably just need to put more effort into not screwing around. It's rare that I can't get things done when I really need to. I can kick my ass into gear when it really counts, like when I have a deadline or something. I did just finish a grad program that involved quite a bit of serious work, after all. But I feel like it never used to be so hard.
I've probably partially turned into a mobile-device addict, which I've heard makes us so addicted to stimulation it becomes harder and harder to fix one's brain to a task that is not instantly gratifying. It also seemed to get really bad with the depression. The last four years or so seemed to have me on a steady decline that way, so I'd been assuming that was at least mostly the depression's (and maybe the iPhone's) fault. But while pretty much every other thing that the depression killed has come back, that's still no better. I'm starting to get concerned. I hate to fall into uselessness, or not get done the things I need to. But I don't really know how to fix this.
Maybe I should start with not playing with the iPhone and see where that got me. :-P