Got to keep fighting

I've never been so ashamed in my life-- of being American, and especially of being white. I have never been one to endorse the view that the average person is stupid or bad, but with this force of white supremacy swaying the course of the election, I am finding myself reevaluating that belief.

I am so sad. I didn't sleep a wink last night and I've spent the time since then sick to my stomach. I'm in a relatively privileged position, apart from being a woman and my difficulty in getting health insurance I can afford. But I'm terrified of what nonwhite, LGBT, immigrant, disabled, and other marginalized people will suffer. Not to mention the threats to the environment and the possibility of nuclear war, which particularly terrify me.

All I can say is I will keep fighting. History is full of examples of this kind of backlash to progress, of stupid fucking humans visiting violence against their own best interests. But there has still been forward movement. There is still the possibility that we can improve and grow. And laying down arms now will only guarantee that the tyrants and monsters of the world will win.

I don't know how yet. I'm still reeling in shock. But I am going to find some way keep fighting.