Crawling out of the exhaustion pit
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breakinglight11I would really like to get back in the habit of journaling again. It's been so long, and it used to be a really big part of my life. So let's see if I can reintegrate it into my routine, now that my schedule and daily responsibilities have shifted.
I have very proudly completed our most recent Mrs. Hawking shows with the amazing cast and crew, which marks five years and five installments of the series. I'm really happy with the performances we gave and the audiences we drew.
But now that's finished, the shape of my life will be different for a while. I lost one of the courses I was supposed to teach this semester due to low enrollment, which is a brutal reality of being an adjunct and going to take a chunk out of my finances for the semester. I'm looking for something else if I can find it, but the one upside in the meantime is I will have a lot more free time and a lot fewer responsibilities. I think I need that for a while.
I've not been at my best for the last six months or so. I've been... sleepy, low-energy, spacey, forgetful. Less on top of my life, responsibilities, and projects than I've ever been. More prone to illness and exhaustion. I still don't know what it is. Bernie thinks it might be burnout. I used to have fairly light summers as break from my otherwise intensely busy life, but for the last two years those summers were eaten up again. It might be a breakdown from plain exhaustion. Or maybe it's something more biological. I finally got a blood test after not getting it together to see a doctor in over a year, in hopes that it's something simple like an iron deficiency I can fix with diet and supplements. But I haven't gotten the results back, so we'll see.
Regardless, I need to get my life in order. The next round of rehearsals don't start until mid-March. In the meantime, I'm trying to take care of myself, sleeping enough, eating right, exercising every day, and not taking on any new projects. I'm trying to clean and organize my space, attending to domestic chores that I've been putting off for ages. My costuming and other show properties need organizing and storing, and things I don't use need to be jettisoned, KonMari-style. I'm worried about my finances with the loss of that class. But I do need time to get myself back together, in hopes of regaining some of my old energy, and what is left of my already shot focus.
I have very proudly completed our most recent Mrs. Hawking shows with the amazing cast and crew, which marks five years and five installments of the series. I'm really happy with the performances we gave and the audiences we drew.
But now that's finished, the shape of my life will be different for a while. I lost one of the courses I was supposed to teach this semester due to low enrollment, which is a brutal reality of being an adjunct and going to take a chunk out of my finances for the semester. I'm looking for something else if I can find it, but the one upside in the meantime is I will have a lot more free time and a lot fewer responsibilities. I think I need that for a while.
I've not been at my best for the last six months or so. I've been... sleepy, low-energy, spacey, forgetful. Less on top of my life, responsibilities, and projects than I've ever been. More prone to illness and exhaustion. I still don't know what it is. Bernie thinks it might be burnout. I used to have fairly light summers as break from my otherwise intensely busy life, but for the last two years those summers were eaten up again. It might be a breakdown from plain exhaustion. Or maybe it's something more biological. I finally got a blood test after not getting it together to see a doctor in over a year, in hopes that it's something simple like an iron deficiency I can fix with diet and supplements. But I haven't gotten the results back, so we'll see.
Regardless, I need to get my life in order. The next round of rehearsals don't start until mid-March. In the meantime, I'm trying to take care of myself, sleeping enough, eating right, exercising every day, and not taking on any new projects. I'm trying to clean and organize my space, attending to domestic chores that I've been putting off for ages. My costuming and other show properties need organizing and storing, and things I don't use need to be jettisoned, KonMari-style. I'm worried about my finances with the loss of that class. But I do need time to get myself back together, in hopes of regaining some of my old energy, and what is left of my already shot focus.
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