A hard start to 2009

The last couple of days have been kind of difficult for me. I have been asked not to give details, but I recieved some bad news about someone very important to me, and I've been extremely upset. This past year has not been easy for some of my loved ones, and it seems things are going to get harder. I'm praying and trying to be hopeful that everything is going to be okay. From now on, I'm going to focus on what is truly important to me. The people I love-- Jared, my family, my dear friends. My art-- writing, theater, larping. A lot of this stuff has highlighted the hollowness and wrongness of a lot of things I've been clinging to. And it's made it all the more clear that I need to let go of them.

Corle-owned

"Take that, gangster! You got Corle-OWNED!"

I am such a dork. :-D

Missing Carmen

It's still strange being home without Carmen around. She's been gone since the beginning of June, but this is only the second time I've been home since then, so I'm still not used to being in this house without her in it. I still expect for her to come greet us when we come in the door, and several times I've started cutting up table scraps to give to her after dinner. Boy, do I miss that girl. She was such a good girl. The best girl anyone could have.

I wonder when my parents will get a new dog. My mom went through a phase where she never wanted another dog ever again, but as I figured she's come around and would like to have a new one around. I think she wants a big one, like a German shepherd or a retriever. I'm not sure if they'll be sticking around the area for much longer or what, so they may be waiting to get one until they know.

All I know is I miss having a dog.