Too sad for a goth club

*Sigh* There's XMortis tonight, and at least one fun person I know is going, but I'm missing Jared kind of keenly right now and the idea of going without hm just kind of kills the mood for me. Haven't spoken to him since Tuesday, and he won't be back until Sunday yet.

Heh. It occurs to me I'm too sad to go to a goth club. :-)

Been kind of stressed out lately, between missing Jared, looking for a job, and the various other unpleasantries in my life. I am resolved to try and be more mellow about it today; yesterday I was kind of a grouch about everything. It was relieved in large part by a very nice dinner with witticaster, who ate pork chops with me-- I never had to really make an endeavor to hang out with her when she lived with me, but now that she's not just the next  bedroom over, I am resolved to actually PLAN to see now and again. Then I went to the first full session with the new group on Kindness's game, and it was a lot of fun. I'm still trying to find Arien as a character, but I'm enjoying the process very much. Good group, good DM. 

Need to be less of a grouch. Today I'll try to do that.

Bah, gravy.

After numerous tries in recent meals I have prepared, I am forced to conclude that I cannot make gravy. I just... don't ever seem to really pull it together. The pan is too hot, the roux won't come together, I don't let it simmer the proper amount of time-- always something like that. I like to blame it on the fact that I usually have to use Smart Balance instead of real butter, but that's not the whole story. It must be genetic. My mother, who can make, like, lobster bisque and osso bucco and other crazy hard stuff like that, can't make gravy either. It's probably because being made of carbs and fat and sugar it's just something that we healthy-eating nuts have such a mental block against that we can't work with it. ;-)