Regular things to keep going with

Doing regular things. Submitted my first homework packet today. Chores around the house. Ballet and sewing class. Hard to focus when I feel this bad. But I'm tough enough at least to go through the motions. To not screw up the running of my life too much.

Writing. For school, for myself. Did some of my best work during the lowest periods of my life. Alice was written during a time of extreme blackness, though that time was nothing compared to this. It's tough to marshal my brain-- becoming a television addict because it distracts me from the bad thoughts --but I need to use this pain constructively somehow. I think I've got something. If I can just make myself work through this.

For God's sake, make something of it.