Useless

Been pretty much completely useless for the last several weeks. I know I didn't rest the way I wanted to, but my profound inability to focus on ANYTHING productive is ridiculous. I can't let this keep going. I'm getting really behind both in stuff I need and want to do, and it makes me so angry at myself.

Had a couple bad spells of depression pop up too. It comes and it goes, as it probably will for the rest of my life. But it makes everything I do feel particularly pointless. And when I'm already struggling to be productive, that makes me even more useless than before. Right now I'm having a hard time even figuring out what to focus my energy on, what would be the best use of my creative energy and effort, but that uncertainty is making me do NOTHING out of fear of wasting time doing the WRONG THING. Useless.

Resolving here to get my ass in gear. On SOMETHING, even if it's not the best use of my time or energy. I've got the Bare Bones staged reading of Base Instruments this Friday evening, which is great. I'm glad to get that play out there, and it's something to get myself going. It's a good play, the best Mrs. Hawking play so far, and maybe it'll energize me to do more work.