Acne cow

[breakinglight11]

Severely depressed by the state of my acne this morning. It seems like no matter what I do, no matter how carefully I use my supposedly top-of-the-line miracle-working Proactiv, a pizza face I am and a pizza face I seem to ever remain. I know, I know, I'm shallow and with no sense of perspective. People with real problems I'm sure are simply falling all over themselves with sympathy for me. *eye roll.* Even my mother, my gorgeous, practically perfect mother, who was a size two well into her fifties, all her life had but one real flaw in her appearence and it was epically bad skin. Guess I inherited more than just pleasant features from her.  Also, count your blessings, Phoebe, you ungrateful cow-- isn't it enough to be pretty and thin, you need to have perfect skin too?

Now I'm kind of disgusted with myself. I still fucking hate my acne, though. I'm vain, shallow, and encrusted with boils. Feeling great about myself now. 

Comments

[rigel.livejournal.com]

You are not flawed nor selfish for feeling self-conscious about your appearance. Sure, it's a first-world problem (at least). You're living in a first-world country! And for fear of bringing up a whole host of weird gender issue stuff, I'd say people raised biofemale have even higher sensitivity to it.

I've struggled with acne (yes, on top of the psoriasis - whee!) all of my life. I get acne semi-regularly even now, and I'm definitely out of the age range where it's considered common. While I'm more self-conscious about the psoriasis on my face when it happens, I still don't like feeling bumpy, red or pock-marked.

Just because you are slim and attractive doesn't mean you don't have the right to feel uncomfortable about something you don't like about your appearance.

Also? You're still pretty.

[breakinglight11.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you, love. This really made me feel a lot better. Means a lot to me.