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breakinglight11Back from the wedding, which made for a lovely weekend where I could take a break from thinking about my life. Now, however, there's no more avoiding it. I have a crazy, demanding week ahead of me that has my stomach in knots from the stress of everything I have to get done. I have jumped in, but there's just so much to get through.
My depression has always been situational, and usually in response to some seriously bad life state. Jared's black cloud of a presence, my mother's illness. Nothing's bad on that level, but certain life things unraveling has left me feeling increasingly adrift and uncertain. I feel so pathetic saying I'm worried I'm getting depressed again, especially since I know so many people with way more serious stuff going on. The only thing that worked to lift it in previous instances was the circumstances changing for the better. But if I knew how to change my current circumstances, I don't think I'd be feeling like this.
My depression has always been situational, and usually in response to some seriously bad life state. Jared's black cloud of a presence, my mother's illness. Nothing's bad on that level, but certain life things unraveling has left me feeling increasingly adrift and uncertain. I feel so pathetic saying I'm worried I'm getting depressed again, especially since I know so many people with way more serious stuff going on. The only thing that worked to lift it in previous instances was the circumstances changing for the better. But if I knew how to change my current circumstances, I don't think I'd be feeling like this.
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