Contacts

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I am wearing contacts for the first time. After what seems like a million tries, I finally got them in.

I'm kind of fascinated by my reflection. It occurs to me that this is the first time I've clearly seen my face without glasses in the way in quite a few years. I notice things that surprise me, mostly about my eyes-- how widely-spaced they are, their almost almond shape, how long and black my eyelashes are. At the same time, my face seems oddly open and empty, like something's missing. The glasses, of course. For years now I have worn a style without frames, with small lenses, in hopes that they'll be less intrusive to my appearence. 

I have for a long time had an inclination that when you look at me, you see me, the real me as I am. It's part of the reason why I don't wear makeup, or dye my hair, or things like that. If you like something about me, I want it to be really me, something real, not something artificial. It occurs to me that, with contacts, it's one less artificial thing. You can see me, me as I actually am. 

They're hurting now. I'm going to take them out. I still need to get used to them. It'll take time.

Comments

[bleemoo.livejournal.com]

I like the way you look in glasses. That being said, I look forward to seeing you without them.