No shame for Lent

[breakinglight11]

With everything that's been going on, Mardi Gras and Ash Wednesday have already come and gone without my realizing. Even so, I want to do something for Lent. I thought about it and I've decided that I'm going to give up being ashamed of myself. I have spent so much time and energy trying to hide things that I'm struggling with, to stop myself from displays of emotionality that I'm afraid people will think are unseemly. But I feel like I shouldn't do that right now. It might have saved me some judgment from people, but I shouldn't care about people who would judge me for being in pain over legitimate struggles in my life, and I think it did much more to trap me into having no way to deal with those struggles. Also, I just don't have the strength to pretend about that stuff. I have to get myself through this without wrecking my whole life, I need to have fewer things to worry about in order to do it. I have more important things to do than keep things that have hurt me secret.

This will be a big shift for me. It might end up being easier to do things the way I always have. But this also might help makes things easier in the process. I don't know. But I'm going to try it, in hopes that getting a little healthier will help me get through.

Comments

[v-cat.livejournal.com]

This sounds like an awesome idea. Wish id thought of it years ago. Good luck! Also people will judge no matter what we do, so fuck 'em

[khyros.livejournal.com]

YES. Soo much validation.

[twilighttremolo.livejournal.com]

What a good goal. Good luck!

[laurion]

!Buena Suerte!

[darkoni]

That's awesome! You shouldn't have to worry about others judging you when you express yourself. Those that care about you will just be happier for you that you are doing what you need to do.

[katiescarlett29.livejournal.com]

I'm really proud of you. <3

[natbudin.livejournal.com]

+1,000,000