Finally happy

[breakinglight11]

I never made a formal announcement over LiveJournal, but the 21st marks one month since Bernie and I officially started dating. I can't believe how different my life is, how different things can be.

I've loved him for a long time. I never acted upon that in any way that would have violated the boundaries of the relationship I was in, but it became clearer and clearer that even then he was my real emotional support, much more of a true partner. I waited four months after the breakup, but after that I felt I was ready to move forward with my life.

It's been so good. We don't really have that happy shiny new person feeling, as I think that part actually happened years ago before we could ever actually date, but I've learned not to trust that feeling anyway. Instead everything just feels better. I feel calmer, stronger, more able to handle struggle without losing it. He makes me happy, truly, consistently, in a way I haven't been in years. Finally the depression is gone. It was like getting over an addiction. It was hell during the detox period, but now that it's over, I feel so much freer, healthier, like I have my life back.

Comments

[mllelaurel.livejournal.com]

Awwww! I'm glad for this. You deserve to be happy.

[blendedchaitea.livejournal.com]

Congratulations Phoebe! I'm so glad you're doing better and feeling happier. :)

[laura47.livejournal.com]

I'm so happy for both of you!

[khyros.livejournal.com]

So Pleased you have something in your life that makes you this kind of happy.

[staystrong62805.livejournal.com]

I'm really really happy for both of you (: Congratulations and I'm glad you're feeling happier.

[bleemoo.livejournal.com]

That is awesome. Mazel tov to both of you.

[darkoni]

That is awesome!

I kind of wondered if that was going to happen. You two seemed like you made each other happy.

[morethings5.livejournal.com]

Wow, Phoebe. I am literally tearing up at reading this. I am so happy for you two and you *so* deserve this. I love you both so much :')

[lightgamer.livejournal.com]

As usual, my designated right-brain expressed this feeling better than I could, so I will just +1 his comment.

[ninja-report.livejournal.com]

Wonderful to hear it! I'm glad you guys are so happy together. :)

[contradictacat.livejournal.com]

[LIKE]

[usernamenumber.livejournal.com]

So happy for you! Yours has been an unusual trip, but that just makes the story better. :)

[audioboy.livejournal.com]

You, of all people, have deserved to be happy for a long, long time. I'm ecstatic to hear that you finally are! *hug*

[witticaster.livejournal.com]

I am so happy for both of you! <3