So much for that blood test
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breakinglight11Well, got the results of my blood test back. The verdict: NOTHING. All my levels are fine; spectacular, even. I am the specimen of health. I mean, I do eat well, sleep well, and work out almost every day. This is ultimately a good thing, as I should be grateful I'm in physically good shape with no real problems. But I'm a touch disappointed there wasn't something identifiable or treatable found, like an iron deficiency or something. Because then I might have something I can blame for my feelings of low energy and lack of focus, and a clearer course of action to take to possibly fixing it. As it is, I don't know what I can do to change things, and I've been so frustrated by the impact it's had on my daily life.
To be honest, I am already starting to do a little better taking care of life stuff. I've made a ton of progress cleaning up my house, culling my possessions and organizing what I keep. It hasn't been very long, but I've already done better with my journal, and making sure I do at least a little work on a writing project every day. I've been on top of work responsibilities, such that so far nothing has been forgotten, or slipped to the last minute. I'm hoping to make these things habit again. I even resolved to try to get back into reading novels, even if it means reading only one chapter a night before bed.
But I still FEEL off. I sleep a lot, often going to bed ridiculously early and still napping during the day. And focus is a fucking BATTLE. I can usually eventually get into whatever I need to work on, but it takes a fair bit of struggle to get started, which wastes a lot of time. Reading just that one chapter of a book, I feel my brain wanting to drift almost constantly. I've had a suspicion for years smart phone addiction is partially to blame. It's worth it to try and modify how I interact with it, though I haven't yet decided how, and I know it's going to be hard. I really am addicted. I've been making a fair number of changes lately which have required effort and resolve, so I don't want to overload myself too fast. Still, it's looking like forcing myself to make adjustments to how I live are the only hope I have of snapping myself out of this bad rut. I'll just have to phase more things in gradually, I suppose.
But I really hoped I could just have started taking iron supplements or something and had an easy fix.
To be honest, I am already starting to do a little better taking care of life stuff. I've made a ton of progress cleaning up my house, culling my possessions and organizing what I keep. It hasn't been very long, but I've already done better with my journal, and making sure I do at least a little work on a writing project every day. I've been on top of work responsibilities, such that so far nothing has been forgotten, or slipped to the last minute. I'm hoping to make these things habit again. I even resolved to try to get back into reading novels, even if it means reading only one chapter a night before bed.
But I still FEEL off. I sleep a lot, often going to bed ridiculously early and still napping during the day. And focus is a fucking BATTLE. I can usually eventually get into whatever I need to work on, but it takes a fair bit of struggle to get started, which wastes a lot of time. Reading just that one chapter of a book, I feel my brain wanting to drift almost constantly. I've had a suspicion for years smart phone addiction is partially to blame. It's worth it to try and modify how I interact with it, though I haven't yet decided how, and I know it's going to be hard. I really am addicted. I've been making a fair number of changes lately which have required effort and resolve, so I don't want to overload myself too fast. Still, it's looking like forcing myself to make adjustments to how I live are the only hope I have of snapping myself out of this bad rut. I'll just have to phase more things in gradually, I suppose.
But I really hoped I could just have started taking iron supplements or something and had an easy fix.
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